Just finished packin. Leavin home tomorrow.

No more free food. No more internet. No more TV. No more aircon.
No more long phone calls to Nat n Kerry. No more dinner at Aunt June's. No more nagging from Mom. No more hangin with my fav cousin, Wun.

Back to solitude and Tranquility. I know Fat Mama and Gatita miss me horribly.

I'm a lil afraid honestly. Of what I'll feel when I see him again. I'm telling myself to be ready for anything, he might have forgetten bout me, he might not. And I dont know which one Id prefer.
That he has no feelings for me, so I will move on and we can be good friends.
Or that he still likes me, and I will be torn because I know he cannot love me, ever, and I would be plunging into more pain.

Things get so complicated sometimes.

But... I know I am strong, and no matter what happens, I'll be fine. I love myself too much to be melancholy for too long... I'm a happy child. And always will be.